Looking Back... Looking Ahead

December 31, 2014

I don't think it wouldn't be an exaggeration to say that 2014 has been pretty much the most hectic year of
My. Entire. Life.

I was so determined at the beginning of the year to implement some new things around here, but things just kept happening without a break, and the blog very noticeably suffered from it. While earlier, it was more out of laziness than anything else that posts around here were sporadic, this year, inspite of truly trying, I realised that there comes a time when sometimes you stretch yourself thin, you wont be able to give your best to anything. And I wasn't ready to blog halfheartedly.

Oh, and in case you weer wondering about those *solemn voice*goals and resolutions*end solemn voice* I made at the beginning of 2014... I barely succeeded at any of them and they're not worth mentioning, honestly. I knew I should've never made resolutions :/

Since I'm so making lists, I thought it'd be fun to make a list of all that's occurred this year and look at it in all its glory.

I stood for the college Students' Council Elections and won

The campaigning was very stressful, but also so much fun! It was such a great bonding experience with my friends, and I also ended up making new friends along the way. I've been the Literary and Debating Secretary for around 7 months now, and while it's been no cakewalk, it's definitely been fun!

I decided I was going to grad school

This wasn't something that just struck me out of the blue. I's always known that I wanted to get atleast my masters in Psychology, but it was only this year that I realised that I'd be no good at therapy, and also, research was something that spoke to me on a deep level; something that would answer all the questions I had.

I Prepared for the GRE and TOEFL and wrote them

Since I was pretty confident about the TOEFL (I'm the weird kid who used to take practice tests for fun, and they were always so easy), but I was really nervous about the Quants section of the GRE. Although all the math covered in the tests was what we covered in 9th Grade Math, I was so out of touch with the whole subject.

I opted for self study, and honestly, I don't think I've ever studied that hard in my life. For five months, all I did was eat, drink and breathe the GRE portions. After I took the test, I felt like my daily schedule had suddenly cleared up and I didn't know what to do with myself half the time! It's been five months now since I finished, and I still haven't fully adjusted.

But anyway, I took the test, and did well. After a two month break, I took the TOEFL, and like I'd expected, it was a piece of cake.

I took up one research project... and another... and another (along with an internship)

So this year has firmly established that I'm crazy and take on way more than I can comfortably handle, and then work like a dog to make sure I do everything perfectly.

The internship came first, and it was then that I realised therapy wasn't really something I wanted to spend my life doing. While it's a worthy profession, I dont know if its the right thing for someone who can be uncomfortable in a social situation.

Since by then I knew I wanted to do research, I thought it would be a good idea to get started early, just to make sure it really was right for me. Somehow, without my realising, I kind of ended up having to juggle three separate studies at the same time. It's back breaking work, literally. It's been months since I've gone outside without a backpack that kills my shoulders and back.

But the trill of discovery once we make sense of the results is so so rewarding!

I went to a National Competition... and won

When the announcement came for a national level research competition, I jumped on it, despite all that I had going on. One thing I just cant resist is a competition. So after we got shortlisted, my partner and I went and presented our paper, and we won second place! It was such a thrill, and we had so much fun!

The icing on the cake was the cash award that we got :D (more moolah for zee lovely books *rubs hands gleefully*)

But enough about the past. What do I plan for 2015?

Well, I've learnt my lesson about making resolutions, so I'm not making any for 2015. I think 2015 is going to be all about hope for me. There is so much I hope to accomplish next year, both IRL and with blogging. Here's another list (a short one, I swear) about some of what hope to do next year:

  1. Maybe take up my 2014 resolutions again and have another go at them.
  2. I made some new blogging friends this year, but what with one thing and another, I've kind of lost touch again. I want to pick back up with them and hope to forge a closer relationship.
  3. Speaking of relationships, I've got to socialise more. For real.
  4. I hope to get into a great grad school where I can find my space and be myself.
  5. I wasn't very happy with my year reading wise, and I hope 2015 will be better, and look forward to working towards that.

So yes, that's what's been happening with me all year.

Tell me about your year! :)